Introduction#

Need to delete facebook! I have downloaded facebook to find new deals with houses which i do, but then again i just see a political reel from my feed and then i start scrolling cause there is nothing interesting in my daily life apart from the gym. I genuinely can’t find a project to work on that will make me motivated if it’s not about making money. Imma start tweaking soon. I scheluded a night out with the boys to reset and maybe get a bit drunk to relax but apart from that i dont give a fuck about anything anymore… Imma need to relax or something…

Scoring TODO’s From Yesterday#

  • reply to the interviews fail
  • send cv templates to my friend done
  • dont scroll in the morning done
  • do the morning ritual and then study to create the habit for deep focus work fail
  • go to the supermarket and buy coffee beans fail
  • go to the second hand store and buy a sieve or a coffee making machine fail
  • study stats for 2 hours at least and actually solve exercises fail
  • smoke maximum 6 cigarettes fail
  • eat small portions high in protein and fibers, low on carbs done
  • go to the gym (chest n triceprs) done

Review of the day#

I just bought another coffee from the supermarket. I already know if i start drinking caffeine regularly its gonna fuck me up but studying these bullshit is genuinely stressing me out. I dont care about these subjects cause i will never use them and if I want to get something done, ai, online sources, google, or whatever can guide me through getting a task done. Learning a bit of everything while specialising in nothing and being capable in nothing stresses me out, while also feeling like a failure cause the uni makes you feel like shit if you dont memorize everything. This is the system designing you to fail and making oyu an employee. Im living a nightmare… Imma need to break this loop and escape from this. The only way that i see right now is getting a job and having a monthly stream of income so that i can start expirementing and actually make money in my own way. I didnt study at all and the coffee idea was a bad idea so i didnt do it, i dont want to do that shitty interview cause its at a shitty company that i lied in my cv that i have 5 years of experience to land an internship and then i realised that the market is cooked when you need 5 years of experience just to work for free. WTF IS HAPPENING. US is trying to devalue the dollar probably to escape defaulting on its debt and bringing down europe with it. I need to find a genuine way to survive and i don’t know how to proceed. Uni is making me feel like im going to be in an unescapable matrix that im going to suffer paying half of my salary to taxes and renting a shitty apartment for the rest of my life. Tomorrow im going to prepare more personalised cvs to send to companies to work during the summer, i already have a google sheet and some workflows and did some research. Also found out that europeans can’t really work for a US company unless they have a base in europe. I am at least happy that the workout went well. Also started crushing out after basically arguing about whether to use bulletpoints or not in a linkedin post that nobody will see… I DONT CARE BRO… Im not going to argue about this just either leave me to do it or you do it, egoing me through text by sending a “we’ll talk tomorrow about it” and then doesnt reply and thats starting to get into my nerves. Imma start losing my shit with this guy. Imma give today a rating of Bad. Let’s try to find some improvements to make.

TODO Tomorrow#

  • dont scroll in the morning
  • do the morning ritual and then study to create the habit for deep focus work
  • focus work for tomorrow:
    • reply to the interviews
    • create personalised cvs for positions of interest
    • send 5 cvs
    • study statistics for at least an hour
  • smoke maximum 6 cigarettes
  • eat small portions high in protein and fibers, low on carbs
  • go to the gym (back n bicepts)
  • go out (don’t get hammered)