Introduction#

Okay, i relaxed a lot from yesterday and i dozed off today. I didn’t do much cause i felt tired and mostly scrolled and did a bit of a research about setting up a company in Netherlands. I found my assets collumn finally. I can see a way through the shit. I don’t know why i kept feeling tired and unmotivated. I think being isolated destroys me. I need to change environment and meet with people that push me. I have to do it. A day that i skip work is a day less that i enjoy the life that i want. I’m constantly pulled into a dark place that i can’t escape mentally but i think i can see the clearance. I saw the wedding of a guy two years older than me with all of the luxury that i can dream of and I was immideately demotivated instead of looking what life i can achive if i push through. I can’t give up. I just started. Let’s fucking go. This is the way.

Scoring TODO’s From Yesterday#

  • dont scroll in the morning fail
  • study after morning ritual to create the habit for deep focus work fail
  • focus work for tomorrow:
    • reply to the interviews fail
    • create personalised cvs for positions of interest fail
    • send 5 applications fail
    • study statistics for at least an hour fail
  • smoke maximum 6 cigarettes fail
  • eat small portions high in protein and fibers, low on carbs done
  • go to the gym (back n bicepts) fail

Review of the day#

I kind of expected today not to be productive but i didn’t do shit today. I can’t continue like this. I either need vacation to restart or something to boost me more into the deep focus time. I can’t lose focus. I need to train my brain to lower my dopamine levels and be okay with doing low dopamine tasks. I need to reduce the cigarettes that destroy my focus and be more disciplined. I can see now that the assets that I have are able to get me out of the situation that i am as of right now. I have motivated friends and capable people around me. I have energy to do stuff. I have the mentality and the intelligence to identify the issues that hold me back. I can see my situation as of right now, the hand that i have been dealt with and I can see what i can do with it. Basically I need to get focused on the consulting of Maasec and get a market research on how to sell products in the cybersecurity sector. I need to find out what are my competitors doing and start outreach. I got funds to start warming up accounts. I got a capable team that can help me push through. I got better mentally and physically. I lost some weight and need to lose a few more kilos. There are no excuses for me failing. I need to focus on the long run and invest in my mental, physical and focus abilities. Let’s adjust the tasks and my habits to help me even more. I can see that being home all day burns me out. I have to change environment tomorrow first thing in the morning. I will eat my breakfast, get a coffee, go to the library and do there focus work. Need to get my bike fixed cause its making noises, the steering wheel needs tightening and the tires need to get pumped. I will go home to eat lunch, take a shower, go to the gym, come back and do some more work. Then I can call it a day. Today i’m not even going to talk about it im rating it Bad. Let’s improve.

TODO Tomorrow#

  • dont scroll during the whole day
  • morning ritual and then go to a cafe to study
  • focus work for tomorrow:
    • reply to the interviews
    • film a social media post before leaving the house and then edit it a bit
    • study statistics for at least an hour
    • prepare a brochure with the services that maasec offers
  • get the bike fixed
  • smoke maximum 6 cigarettes
  • eat small portions high in protein and fibers, low on carbs
  • go to the gym (back n bicepts)